Not Easy Being Sick

For the past 2 weeks I have not been feeling myself. However, I sometimes have something called FOMO..(fear of missing out). SO, even though I have felt sick, I have continued to go to classes, and go out on the weekends. I figured going to the health center wouldn't do anything...last year when I went they told me to take the same medicine I had already been taking. But on Thursday night when my friend was over, my throat started to constrict and after she freaked out and almost ran to get an RA, it started to open up again. I ignored it, and we joked about it after even though it wasn't funny.

I woke up Saturday, feeling like never before. I couldn't put the health center off anymore. When I went in for my appointment, my doctor actually told me "you look horrible..."

Not only are my parents upset with me for not having gone earlier, the doctor asked me why I hadn't come in two weeks earlier. I told her I figured it was like any other time I was sick and it would go away with all the medicine I was taking. She didn't want to wait to take xrays of my chest at the hospital in case it was pneumonia, so she put me on a breathing machine to check my oxygen levels. Well...here I am now still in bed since yesterday, with anti-biotics, prescription cough medicine, and an inhaler to my right. I have never wished that I were at home, more than I do now.

This week I decided to fill out an Academic Fears chart..seeing as how I am sick and have a big test tomorrow that I haven't been able to study for being sick this whole weekend. I was irresponsible in how I didn't take care of myself last week. If I have learned anything, its that your health is most important.

My first fear was being sick, with the worst outcome being failing my test tomorrow in HTW 303. The best outcome...uhh..would be studying enough today to get by tomorrow and then sitting down with my teacher to discuss my grade and why I got the grade I did. In order to pass, today I need to drink my soup, and try to focus no matter how hard it will be, on the study guide that I made two weeks ago. After all, this is my fault.